I see what I see. I am in love with love.

Compilation of my thoughts – 20/6/2012 in between 9:30 – 10:30 pm

154%, the size of the document I am typing in. 53%, the volume in the speakers of the lap I am using. Its 9:36 pm I am listening to one of my favorite music ‘Coming back to Life’ by David Gilmour from the Pink Floyd. Certain things around us always remain unnoticed in our eyes. So times we stare at the thing while we are focused on the thought, the thing remains unnoticed. Sometimes the same song seems endless to me and sometimes I sigh as it gets over before I even could enjoy it. But I cherish the song that plays right after it. It seems wonderful too. I often press the next button on the windows media player I use, to find the song I wanna listen to. Astonishingly I press next till my playlist gets over but never find the song. I then just press the play button and a random number plays and I like that. I don’t see rising sun as an inspiration. I see it as it is. I see it every day. And it never happened that it inspired me. Have I ever been inspired by something? Yes sometimes I felt so. Someone I know commented on one of my post the other day “Yoda speaks”. I had no idea of what he wrote. I typed yoda in Google search engine and hit enter.  Then came few alien faces from the star wars. I recollected the star wars, the great legacy of talks I heard bunch of guys back in school talk about. Star wars never interested me. And I never knew Yoda’s speak the way I write. So yoda, I am not. Sherlock Holmes, yes the character from Arthur Canon Doyle’s novel. Holmes didn’t keep any junk in his mind. He liked silence when he thought. Do you know our thoughts are ultrasonic? We can’t hear them even when we scream in our thoughts. Why is yellow considered to be a color for sadness, pale, misery? Why is the “inspiring” sun yellow? Chinese believe the river Hwang Ho, the yellow river, a cause for many miseries. This may be an answer for the former question. I don’t know. So many thoughts meander, so many wishes die, so many come true. Search for something unknown lingers in my heart. Finding the unknown is still the mystery. People say only the dreams are yours, so dream. Don’t ask me who the people are.  Determination and craziness takes you close to your dreams. I feel good when I write down the thoughts that meander in my mind. Why is that we are so weak that we can’t live alone? Everyone needs someone. Even the sages look for nirvana. We are all searching something, hunting for our lives. Why does the mind run in circles? Do we know what a mind is thinking? Do we know what a retarded really wants? How does a doctor even treat them when they don’t know what’s happening in the minds of a retard? Why does a movie get over? Why don’t they show what happens with the happy couple after a week? Why can’t happiness keep coming? Why do people say I love you? I love the word love. I love the feeling that I get after seeing the hero kissing the heroine at the end of the movie. If I could, I would freeze that moment. I see what I see. I am in love with love.


The Road

Where shall you lead me to ?
I shall lead you where you want to be.
For I shall warn you, if you should follow me
follow me with no thought of how and why.
Follow me with love in heart,
follow me with trust in mind,
for I shall never digress you from where you want to be.
Don’t fear, for there shall be thorns on the way.
Don’t fear, for there shall be others with hatred.
Fear is the biggest enemy of you.
Fear weakens your heart and mind.
You are a soul whose mind is fickle.
You are a soul whose heart is bound to attachments.
Shun your fear and follow me with faith.
For I shall help you to learn what is wrong and
what is right on the path that you choose.
Don’t leave me, if you are caught in a turmoil, mind is strong.
Don’t leave me, if you submerge in the ocean of attachments, heart is big.
With love and faith step ahead and follow me.
Walk with me through the road what we know as Life.
Life is blissful. Life is full of love.
You are the one who has to make a choice.
For I shall never leave you if you should choose me.

the Krazy Mind!!

I am a totally messed up circuit,
with many dangling lines and
never ending loops.

Movies, games , thoughts- good and bad,
friends and foes, wisdom and gossips
all adds on to me making me
a chaotic hurricane.

Every thought increases the
level in my barometer by
a certain  degree but i still
remain as strong as a wall.

Sometimes i cry for rest by asking
you to sleep but the sub-conscious
never allows me to.

Thoughts creep in and out
like a busy terminal in New York.
Wish these could be stored
else where with only pointers
in me making me lighter.
But then who would
take up the job of
maintaining the links.

I am complicated.
A turmoil.
A weakness as well as strength for many.
But it is on you to control me.
Don’t let me  runaway
hold me tight in your arms,
flow in the silence of Bliss!!
and i will be all yours,
ever grateful
and then you will know
the mystery behind me.